What Lies Beneath

I stole a few minutes to myself this morning, in between class and getting ready for our new show, Finding Joy.  I run away to a place where there is no time. This place to me, is called 'Reflection'. I sit in reflection long enough to enjoy being with All of my Self. It takes at the very least, a few minutes for me to get into that space where I let go of my identity as a mother, wife, teacher or whatever role I may be playing so I can completely identify with what I am.

I’m not quite sure how to explain what it is I run to, or even why I run. I get something from sitting and being with nothingness, yet I don’t really know what that is. What could I possibly get from what I already am? Why is it so necessary for me to sit in reflection and recognize that I am everywhere, that I am everyone, and that I am everything? Why would that which was in all need to take the time to be aware of it self?

Perhaps it is is the same reason why some people go to great extremes to ensure that they are never alone, never unoccupied, never quiet enough to hear or sense anything that may not have originated from the television. We are probably motivated by the same desire, sounds like a contradiction but in the end it’s the same need. I seek silence because I am afraid of forgetting that I am the stillness, the source, the ALL That exists. Maybe others seek to avoid silence because they are afraid of forgetting that earthly life is temporary, transitory and only a means to an end.

If you can’t remember that physical existence is only an experience that the Soul is choosing to have, then you can forget you have a Soul, you can forget you are the Source, you can deny you are the Spirit.

Why would someone want to deny they are Spirit? For years I tried to forget that there even was a Spirit. I knew that remembering that I was something more than flesh would bring me pain that I did not want to experience. Perhaps my past has been more difficult than others, but I doubt it. Our history indicates that we are capable of doing the unthinkable, very well. But what I didn't know was that the pain was only a brief moment in time if I allowed it to move through like a wave unrestricted.

We can become aware of all that we are, and allow ourselves to remember the Divinity of our Souls. If we run away from the pain that may need healing in our Souls, then we have turned our back on the opportunity to experience the Bliss that lies beneath it all.

I must seek that oneness and constantly reflect upon my true nature so I can experience knowing who and what I am.

This feeling is hard to describe and the only word that comes close is ecstasy.

But words can never really describe what lies beneath, they can only give us a clue as to where to look so we can experience it for ourselves.